I think loss of loved ones is the hardest blow in life.

This month has been crazy. Between packing and getting my apartment together for the big move this weekend I’ve been crazy busy. On top of that I had a loss in my family. I still can’t believe it. Saying the words out loud or in my head it just doesn’t seem real.

The night of her memorial I went and got a tattoo for her. My memorial. She will always be with me. mY MANDA

Moving this weekend is going to be crazy. I’m so broke I’m saving up canned goods for the month I move. lol. I am however very excited about it. New beginnings and new attitude. My dad, Uncle, and Grandpa are helping me move. 🙂 Luckily it’s not too far from where I’m at now.

At least I will have real furniture, patio furniture, new bed frame, new dining room table, new coffee table, and more. I’m pretty excited. I think I am going to make a collage of my little sister on a canvas and put it up in my place. All I can remember about her in my last meeting with her. Happy, smiling, giving me a hug, introducing me to her new baby, her giving me a big hug and telling me that she loves me. 😦 I just couldn’t go to the viewing for her considering she was so young. There was no way I would be able to see her like that. Especially since I saw her so recently. I needed a good memory of her.

Still packing but its been getting slower and slower since I’ve been binging Netflix shows lately. Bleh. Got my whole kitchen, part of my closet, part of my bathroom, part of my bedroom left. at least it doesn’t seem like much. Feels like it thought.

Anywho leaving work. Will try to write again soon.