Friday!

No matter what disaster you’ve been unfortunate to endure, you can get through it.

Well today is Friday and the doctor I work under will not be coming into the office today. I am not sure about the admin who sits in the same office as me, she has been sick all week and making it in around noon to at least get some hours in this week.

So, in the news – there is a hurricane coming to hit the coast. The main person I am worried about is staying at the house and not leaving. He’s stressing me out, but I  told him he’s going to have to come make a trip to see me sooner than later once all of this is over. We’ve been having amazing conversations, we enjoy each other’s company when we are able to hang out. I just hope we can figure things out. We are at least happy with getting to know each other better.

Tomorrow is the day that I am getting my knee tattoo’d. I have not seen the drawn out picture of what it will look like yet, but I trust Krista. Her art is amazing. I cannot wait to get it done, I just with he would be there with me. At least I will have Jade and Monica to sit with me, not to mention Krista who will be putting it on me. So at least I will have my favorite females with me the whole time.

We are celebrating my dad’s birthday this weekend which will be nice. I am very excited to be able to spend more time with my family. I won’t be able to swim more than likely due to the new tattoo but at least I will have it over with by late tomorrow night.

Tonight I think I will start packing up my books and use my bookshelf for other things until I am closer to being done getting everything together. I am just so excited to be able to finally move on. That last conversation we had literally pushed me to the other side of the fence. But I cannot complain. You’ve showed me that I can be happy again; just not with you. So, thank you.

So the rest of my new furniture has come in, there are only a few more things on my “New Apartment” Wal-Mart List.  All that is left is two sets of silk flowers for the living room and dining room; a coat stand, a couple end tables for the living room but I want to make sure the couches can fit into the living room first. The Shark Tank “DrainWig” so I don’t have to worry about backed up sinks again, a new TV mount since I don’t have one that will hold my living room TV, a portable chest with drawers, a step stool, some storage stuff for my pantry, a storage cube with 4 cubes, toaster, a couple of rugs, a toaster, mug holder, spice rack, and fruit holder, and a cast iron pan.

Not too bad! I have already bought a new vacuum for the carpet and hardwood, a new dining room table set, an actual patio set with table and 4 chairs, a fire piece for my patio set, new bed frame, a coffee table, a microwave, and a microwave cart. Spent quite a bit of money, but you know what. I am happy again for once. Plus with getting the money from the ex buying my dining room set I was able to afford  most of it from that alone.

He wants to see the dogs, however there is no way I am driving to McKinney with them in my new car since they would have to be in the trunk area behind the barrier so he will have to make a trip to see them if he is actually wanting to see them. All I have left to get are my lamps, a record, and that could possibly it. I am at least letting him keep a lot of my stuff like dishes and pots and pans and silverware and even furniture that I paid more for, that he didn’t even pay for half of.

New beginnings are starting to happen. I actually am liking someone at the moment. It’s nothing serious since he doesn’t live in the area but at least we are able to chill and watch movies when he is in town. Handsome man. I just wish we knew how we felt about each other 8-10 years ago but then again age would have been a small issue for me; he was technically legal but still looked so young. At least we would have been closer. I’m hoping that we will start getting some plans in the works though. I would have just never thought him, that one person.. Life really surprises you with some of the things you learn when you thought it was too late. Turns out; it’s never too late to follow your heart.

Don’t do anything half-ass. If you love someone, love them with all your heart. If you hate someone, hate them until it hurts.

I hope he figures out what HE wants soon and not what other people want from him. I am trying to stay out of his decision making but if he needs someone to lean on he knows I will always be there. I just love the sound of your voice when you are talking to me. We stay up so late just talking; then it turns into almost a hour later after we say we are going to bed.

Life is about trusting our feelings, taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, and learning from the past.

Why stress over someone that won’t even text to see if you’re alright?\

Sweetheart, you can’t bullshit me. See, I’ve lied to myself enough to know when someone else is doing it. So let’s try this again, and how about the truth this time.